Finding myself

February 13, 2023 0 Comments

Life if funny post-cancer. (I hope I can call it “post-cancer”, I’m only a few months into being in remission so I use that term loosely.) I struggle daily to figure out who I am. The things I used value in myself are different now. I could work like a madman. There would be days …

A year of a 1000 pictures

January 13, 2023 0 Comments

I want to take a trip back and start before my leukemia diagnosis. I want to point out what “might” have been early signs. There’s no real way of knowing but I certainly have a better idea looking back than I did in the moment. Going back through family pictures or the pictures/videos on my …

Daily Habit Practice

September 1, 2022 0 Comments

Matt Wilson (aka Dub) from Dub Strength and I will be doing more joint ventures. To start, first and foremost, we will helping you to develop strong mental practices. These will be daily weekday tasks (and one for the weekend) that will require some effort of mental fortitude but should only take 5 to 10 …

Striving for Perfection

August 31, 2022 0 Comments

“Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away.” ― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry I keep coming back to this quote. As I struggle through life and find that more and more is requiring my attention, sometimes it takes stepping back and reassessing. I’m currently in …

4000 Weeks, cont. 1

August 26, 2022 0 Comments

Dishwashers and other modern conveniences.   It was believed that when vacuums, dishwashers, and microwaves became household items that they would magically help make chores simpler and end up saving time.  The problem was -and still is- that we can’t “save” time.  Instead of being able to bank it and put it away for a rainy …

3 Tenets

November 22, 2021 0 Comments

I write almost every day.  My goal is a thousand words a day.  That’s almost three pages of single spaced text.  I journal everyday as well.  I’m still trying to find the journal I really like the most.  So far I’m using a simple journal from Amazon, one from BestSelf, and another from Monk Journal.  …

9/23 (Day -7) and 9/24 (Day -6)

September 29, 2021 0 Comments

These first 2 days are chemo days. My chemo conditioning consists of busulfan. Evidently it’s pretty harsh. Everything starts bright and early at 8am. Where they started chemo. It takes about 3 hours so I’m hooked up from 8am until 11am. Thankfully no more IV after that but that’ll change around Day -3 when I …

9/22 Admission Day

September 29, 2021 0 Comments

I woke up like I had every day this morning, just trying Amy get the girls off to school with as little trouble as possible. They were coming home at noon to see me off and so that Amy could take me to the hospital make sure I had everything needed. Like the day before, …

Almost there

September 29, 2021 0 Comments

After the results came back from my bone marrow biopsy, the doctors were ready to get me admitted. Just had to jump through a few more hoops. September 20, 20121 I had 4 appt. across 3 different buildings. It was quite the morning. First at 7am was my pulmonary function test. One of the chemos …

Finally a BMB

September 15, 2021 0 Comments

I finally get a pain in my ass! Been looking forward to this for a week, or more. Well, not really the pain but eager to see how this most recent chemo was treating me. As I described in my last blog post, the blasts were too high to go to transplant so I had …